This is going to be a serious post so I understand if you stop reading now. Now my life has been up and down recently with certain things that have happened and things that have been said to me. I wanted to make this post as I wanted to let you guys know what is going on and how I have been feeling.
As of this point in time, I have 2 paid jobs and 2 not paid jobs and I am fine with that. I am doing these jobs because my CV needs some more experience on it for the future. I put myself in this position and I am not scared or unable to do it, I am very capable doing all of these. I also am taking a full-time Uni degree to help me later in life for my career. I have two blogs which I love to pieces and a third in the works for one of my Uni modules. I am hopefully going back to therapy to be even able to finish my course at Uni because I know myself and there will come a time where I just don’t go to Uni due to the amount of stuff that is going on. I also am in a committed relationship.
Now I am saying all this because someone said to me I don’t take things seriously in life. I am not calling them out or trying to make them feel shit. I just wanted to discuss this because it has stuck with me and well not made me feel great. I have tried for over a year now to be more independent, to be more motivated to succeed and that is what I am doing. I am filling my days where I don’t have free time to chill because it makes me concentrate This week I have messed around and just basically done nothing because I haven’t been very well both mentally and physically.
I don’t see my friends much anymore because I am so focused on everything I want to do. Yes, that is good for me career-wise but friendship-wise? Not so good. I haven’t cut all contact with them and still talk to them, I just don’t meet up with them that much and not going to lie, I like that. I like being alone and getting on with things. I know I am serious about things because I choose work over friends. A year ago, I would have chosen it the other way round.
I am writing this because I don’t know what to do with the comments made to me over the past few weeks. I feel like shit because they’re saying these things but at the same time, I really need to get over them because It’s my life. I have made mistakes and if people are going to criticise my every move then I really cannot be bothered.
I’m sorry to have to put such a shitty post on you guys, but I just needed to let it out because it has been making me feel shit since things were said to me.
DISCLAIMER: This post was for my own benefit to talk about how I am feeling not anything else.
I don’t even know why I had to do a disclaimer but people tend to assume things these days and I cannot be bothered to deal with things like that right now.