Now if you have read my blog for a while you may know I have depression. I have struggled with it since my mum died back in 2013. It also doesn’t help that I have anxiety as well but in the last year I have become better with dealing with both of them.
200 days ago was the last time I self harmed and honestly I saw the figure today on my countdown and I couldn’t be more proud of myself. Each time I look down, I do see rarely visible scars but to me they are scars and they were once worse than they are now.
I can’t begin to think what my life would be like if I kept going. I would have lost many friends and I probably would be hospitilised. I must give credit to all of my friends that have supported me in the last 8 months because before meeting my boyfriend, I was a bad mess and I apologise for that.
So thank you to so many people including Lauren, Hannah, Jools, Molly, Charlotte and many more and without you, I wouldn’t be here today. A special thank you to Jack, my boyfriend as you have helped me since I met you turn my bad days into good and help whenever I have panic or anxiety attacks. Thank you all for being my rock the last 8 months.
When I met Jack, it was like a new start for me. To become a better peron not only for him but for myself and I am glad to say, I feel so much better than 6 months ago so I am so glad I have achieved this within myself. I even got a part time job! Finally! So that’s one of my goals for 2017 done!
So my goals for the next 4 months left of this year are:
- Gain 1.5k Twitter followers and do a Giveaway
- Gain 100 WordPress followers
- Pass my first semester in 2nd Year
- Go on holiday with Jack
- Lose a little weight
Also have a cute photo of Jack and our kitten, Ray!